"bob and john" (bobandjohn)
06/26/2015 at 12:16 • Filed to: None
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"bob and john" (bobandjohn)
06/26/2015 at 12:16 • Filed to: None | 1
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IDK what it is. I havent been happy almost this entire summer. (aside from the motorcycle rides. But even those are starting to wear off a bit)
I still dont have my bike. Yes its done...but a stupid little fucking diaphram/reservoir is holding me back. might just cut up an old bicycle tube and rig it to kinda work. (also need insurance for it...but dad wont put it back on until i get the brake thing fixed). I have something ordered for it....but i ordered it back in march, and shipping said from the 22nd to the 14 of JULY (hooray ebay shipping-.-)
I have no job. Yea, I do teach motorcycle riding on the weekend. when I can find a position. But the pay isnt what i would like it/need for the school year. So its very likely that I will have to ask my parents for some money during the school year. and I HATE doing that. They already give me enough, I feel like shit asking for even more.
And of course, girl troubles! GF isnt really taking to me, and thats kinda falling apart/slowing down. Its been going on for a few months now, and I’ve been trying to save it. but IDK. I did speak to her about it, and she knows I’m not happy. and wants to do something about it. But...I dont know, it kinda feels like too little too late. Even though i do want this relationship to work out. (not only is she from the same country and county [romainia] but her parents like me and she understands my motorcycle addition. Not many women do), and I know she is a bit more...sheltered, i think is the word, its not nice ALWAYS being the one to start things.
And parents. I’m trying to relax a bit over the summer, seeing as if i dont really have a job, might as well take a short break from school/work and just relax for a little. Go for a bike ride, maybe try to get into shape a bit. But every fucking day, my parents decide: oh hey, can you do this aorund the house? or this? or that? Which I dont mind doing chores, but FFS, i dont need to clean the god dam stairs 3 times a fucking week. It seems like they are assigning them for the sake of assigning them. (and to cap it off, every single time my mom asked my dad to water the lawn this summer, it would rain the next day. Nothing i cant control, but fuck, why cant some magical force of nature come do my chores? like it hasnt been once or twice. EVERY. SINGLE. TIME this summer. It shouldnt bug me but it does)
man, I dont know what the fuck i’m doing. I dont think i have ever had my life more in shambles. i’m 20. I’m supposed to be an adult. I dont got shit figured out in my life.
What the hell do I do?
Roadster Man
> bob and john
06/26/2015 at 12:34 |
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Are you healthy? Then you have nothing to complain about. Try spending the summer hooked up to an I.V.
Look on the bright side since everything can always be far, far worse.
S2Konstantin
> bob and john
06/26/2015 at 12:46 |
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Relax man, you sound normal. When it comes to the GF, it seems like you know what’s wrong. If you haven’t already, speak with her about always being the one to start things. If that’s not it, then it seems like you’re making excuses to why you want the relationship to work out. You are also only 20 and especially if this is your first real relationship, you don’t really know the signs that it should be ended. Its ok (and normal and probably healthier too) to not stay in your first relationship forever. You don’t want to be that 40 year old married guy who feels like he missed out when he was young and then cheats on his wife.
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bob and john
> S2Konstantin
06/26/2015 at 14:10 |
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not the first, but its beginning to look like it wont be the last
Smoggi - powered by 3 cylinders
> bob and john
06/26/2015 at 16:42 |
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Don’t worry too much about it all. Most people your age don’t know what they’re doing either.